Saturday, October 13, 2012

The duel

He lay there defeated,
On the wet grass,
His sword at his feet,
Breathing heavily,
Wounds bleeding afresh,
Head throbbing with pain.

He opened his eyes,
In the darkness of the night,
Shadows cast by the moon,
Behind the purple haze,
Stood his towering assailant,
With a smug look on his face.

Groaning in agony, he sat up,
Studied his victor close, and said,
'You are the same, aren't you?
Our swords have met before,
And I have fought my battles best,
Yet why is it that I never win?'

His stolid opponent smiled,
Sheathed his bloody sword,
Donned his coat and hat,
Turned to depart, but paused,
And said, 'Thanks for the invite,
See you next spring.'

Friday, September 28, 2012

A promise

He came out of his hut, a small hut with thatched roof that stood at one corner of his field.  It was a bright morning, with white fluffy clouds floating above.  He smiled.  Today was the day.  He had worked very hard for it for months.  He was finally going to see some action.  He was finally going to fulfill his promise.

He went back in, helped himself to a hot cup of coffee, had a hearty breakfast and came out.  He looked at his equipment, with great satisfaction. It was lying outside his house just a little away from the pole that supported his roof.  He had done a good job, though he felt that one of the screws could be tightened a little more, so it doesn't jut out so much.  He sought perfection and beauty in everything he did.  He went back into his hut, brought out his toolkit and started working on his wonder device.  He intended to tighten just one screw, but one thing led to another, and he couldn't stop till he was completely satisfied with the look and feel of his creation.  It was already mid afternoon by the time he finished.  He walked back to his hut, quenched his thirst with a glass of cool water from the earthen pot kept just outside the door.  The sun had started its journey downwards to the oceans.  Now seemed like a perfect time to launch his device.  

Two years ago, he was the happiest man on earth, or so he thought.  He had the most loving family - his ever so kind wife and his charming little boy filled him with so much joy that he didn't seem to want anything else in life.  Till one day, his son contracted a deadly illness that even the best of physicians and the costliest of medicines could not cure.  "This is a very rare disease", the doctors had said, "and science hasn't progressed enough to cure this".  In his son's battle against death, death won, leaving him and his wife devastated.  It was not long before his wife passed away unable to bear the loss of their child.  He wandered far and wide, wherever his grief would take him.  He fought hard, he wanted answers.  After a long struggle, the quest ended, the flames subsided.  He had consoled his heart, but came back with a determination, a dogged determination to fulfill a promise.  He sold all his property, gave away his riches to the poor, saved a small piece of fertile land, built a hut in one corner of it, and settled there.

He looked at the sky again, at the white fluffy clouds, drifting slowly with the wind.  His son's voice echoed in his mind, the vision haunted his memories. 

"Daddy!", the kid had exclaimed.  "Do you know what I want for my birthday this year?"
"No, my son.  What do you want for your birthday?"
"Can you take a guess?"
"Mmmm.. Let's see. You want a new set of cars to play with?"
"No daddy. I already have a lot of cars." 
"Shoes with flashing lights?"
"No daddy.  I just decided what I want for my birthday.  I want the clouds!"  The kid sounded ecstatic. He hopped and looked up at the sky, while holding his father's hand as they walked through the lush green paddy fields, glowing in all its prosperity. 
"The clouds, my dear boy?"  His dad was indeed puzzled.
"Yes daddy, the clouds.  I want some clouds for my birthday!  Don't you think it will be nice to hang them outside our house during Christmas?!  Maybe we can put some on the Christmas tree!!  And I will take some to school to show everybody!"  The kid couldn't contain his excitement and his father realized that he was serious.
"But, son.  It is not possible to get the clouds, they are very far away.  Nobody has reached them." 
"You are lying daddy, you told me that aeroplanes go higher than clouds. I have seen them myself."
He realized that wasn't working.  
"Is there something else you want my son?  Daddy is growing old and I am afraid I can't travel to the clouds and bring them back for you."
"But no daddy, I want the clouds. They are so beautiful."  The kid started crying, which sent pain down the father's chest.  How could he let his son cry?
"Okay, I will get you the clouds, but not for this birthday, but maybe two years later.  Is that okay?"
"But why not this birthday?" 
"It will take me a long time to reach the clouds and I want to find the best one for my boy."
"But will you promise me that you will get me the clouds?"
"I promise."  Saying thus, he lifted his son into the air, embraced him close to his chest, and carried him home.  He secretly hoped that his son would forget about the clouds and his promise.  Of course, kids forget and two years is enough time for them to want a different birthday gift.

His kid's enthusiasm and his own promise reverberated in his heart.  That was two years ago, how quickly time flies, he thought, yet not fast enough for him not to feel it.  He laid a hand on his equipment, pressed onto the fixture in the ground, to make sure it was secure.  He took the net in one hand, supporting it with the other.  He pressed a button and the machine came on with a loud whirring sound.  He looked at the sky again, he looked at the clouds, poised himself for the launch and with one sweeping motion, cast his net into the air.  It went flying towards the skies.  As it expanded and traveled higher and higher, he felt it drag him with it, but he kept steady.  The machine spun at an incredible speed and the net reached the clouds.  He saw it trap a few beautiful soft white fluffy clouds inside.  He pressed a lever and the net started retracting.  He pulled at the net, it came closer and closer to him, wrapping tightly around the clouds.  As it neared his field, he noticed that the trapped clouds were getting darker and denser.  And before he knew it, it had started to rain over his paddy field, and the net limply fell on the ground.  He stopped his machine and smiled.

His neighbor who lived several yards away from him had been watching him from his verandah.  In fact, he had been watching this man at work for several months, this quiet man, who remained a mystery to the entire neighborhood.  He walked over to him and said, "You look like a wise man, but were you really hoping to capture the clouds?"  He smiled, but didn't say anything.  "Well, you got rain earlier than usual, so maybe you will get good crop this year!"  To which, he again smiled but replied, "I am going to make some coffee.  Would you like to join me?"

A year passed.  The machine lay outside the hut; it had been worked on, it had new features and looked stronger.  The man stepped out of his hut, examined his wonder device, and looked at the sky.  It was a clear night, the sun had set and the stars were twinkling in a multitude of colors in a distant land.  He laid a hand on his equipment, pressed onto the fixture in the ground, to make sure it was secure.  He took the net in one hand, supporting it with the other.  He pressed a button and the machine came on with a loud whirring sound.  He looked at the sky again, he looked at the stars, poised himself for the launch and with one sweeping motion, cast his net into the air.

He cast a net, a net for the stars that night...

Friday, September 21, 2012

Red red roses

This rose plant stood in a rather unkempt corner of the garden.  He was a strong plant, who gave flowers every season, beautiful and fragrant, red red roses..  The other rose plants envied him, his strength, his beauty and the fabulous roses that he produced.  Yet, he was the unhappiest plant in the whole garden, for none came to pick his beautiful roses.  The flowers bloomed, spread the sweet fragrance throughout the garden, invited the neighbors' envy, waited and wondered, why none came near, and withered away into the earth.  The mighty rose plant never understood why, the priest who stopped by the garden religiously every morning, never dared touch him; the starry-eyed lover who looked admiringly at his roses, never came an inch closer; the little girl who wanted a rose to match her dress, wouldn't lay a finger.  Why, even the gardener watered him from a distance!  

Years passed.  Autumn came.  It came every year, but this time it was different.  Gusts of wind came with mighty force, rattled the earth and shook the roots of the plant.  The mighty rose plant, who broke not a branch all these years, fought a battle much fiercer.  The wind rushed through his leaves, bringing them all down in a sweep.  The rose plant swayed from side to side, struggling to hold on to his roots.  Sometimes the wind twisted his branches.  The rose plant kept fighting, but his branches started to break.  He heard a crack and he heard it fall.  His own branches fell on him.  And then he knew, and then he understood, everything.  His roses were beautiful indeed, but that came with a costly price.  His thorns were longer, stronger and sharper than any he had ever seen, than any he had ever felt.  He felt his own thorns pierce his vein, causing him unbearable pain.  One by one, the branches fell on him, the plant screamed in agony.  The wind wreaked havoc on the garden and finally bid goodbye.  The rose plant looked at himself, at the fresh wounds caused by the thorns, his very own.  So proud had he been, about his glamorous roses, that he had failed to see his thorns.  Overcome with shame, overcome with grief, the rose plant endured the winter in silence.

Months passed.  Spring came.  It came every year, but this time it was different.  The sparrows chirped a little too merrily, and the apple shoots peeked a little too early.  The garden was gay, bright and cheerful.  But something was amiss in a rather unkempt corner of the garden.  There stood a rose plant who had given flowers every season, beautiful and fragrant, red red roses.  But all that was left of him was a dried trunk, with a few dead branches.  The concerned gardener came close, a little closer than he had ever been.  He pulled the broken branches apart to reveal the body of the plant, with veins running dry and scars running deep.  He watered it anyway, with a little more care.  Alas, for it wasn't just the veins that the thorns had pricked.  The rose plant never bloomed again, but sank into the earth to join his untouched flowers, beautiful and fragrant, red red roses.

Sunday, September 16, 2012

The vending machine

Some things are unforgettable. There is this vending machine in the building where I work - the vending machine that acts as a savior when I am losing it in lab and really want some sugar down my throat. It was one of those days, one of those long and tiring ones in lab, when I walked down those silent corridors towards the vending machine. On my way down there, I was trying to decide between a bar of snickers and a more healthy option. The first three items from the left are healthier options, says the vending machine, I remember. But very rarely have I risked having the healthier option, I have always been disappointed, either by the taste or the meager quantity. I hadn't made up my mind yet, but I was already in the room. And lo! The machine wasn't there!

Have I arrived at the wrong room? Did I take a wrong turn somewhere lost in my thoughts? I stepped out of the room, looked around. No, I am in the right place. There is even a coke vending machine nearby, where it always used to be. This has to be the room. But now, there was only a dark patch on the floor where the vending machine used to sit. What did they do with it? Didn't they realize that someone was heavily dependent on it? Didn't they see stuff vanishing from there? (Of course, I fed the machine the required number of quarters every time.)

Very disappointed, I went back to lab, unable to focus on work. Why would anybody want to remove the vending machine? Why didn't they leave a note saying when it would be back? Did they move it some place else? Where was it? Will it be back?  I was very very sad. Things don't end here. Worse is when you walk down those corridors again, on another long and tiring day, when there is no other option available for you to get a snack, and you find the same dark patch.

It has been several weeks, perhaps months, I have lost track.  I want to know if the vending machine is back. I want to find out, but I don't want to make that trip down to the little room in the corner. What if it isn't there? I know I cannot handle it. Not again.

Is anybody listening?

Greener pastures


This was a post I had written a long time ago, found it in my drafts today. 

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Today was again one of those days when I was wondering if I was on the right career path, rather wondering what my career path was.  I was sitting at a friend’s desk staring at all the cute little things she had on display on her pin board, wondering if I would have enjoyed being in her place, doing her job, instead of being where I am right now.  As I sat there imagining how different my life would have been, this one particular cartoon on the board caught my eye. 

A toothbrush says to his friend, “Mine is the most disrespectful job on earth.” 
Yeah, right”, goes the friend, who happens to be a roll of toilet-paper! :D

To each his own!